I’ll Stand: A Prayer

My soul now to stand.

The awe of it all. The idea that He stands before my failure—my daily failure that debilitates me.

The awe of it all. The idea that He carried the cross for my shame—the deepest shame of the worst nightmares that paralyze me.

The awe of it all. The idea that the weight of all my sins weighed upon His shoulders—my ugly sin that I despise.

What can I say?? There are no words. I could fill a thousand notebooks and never come close to expressing all that is within me to express to my God. I could write songs and prose and poetry, yet they would only say a fraction of all that is in my soul. What can I say??

What can I do?? My sinful self wants to work for Your grace. To earn your grace. But that’s not how this strange thing called salvation works. I could do all the good works in the world and yet not atone for my own sin. You did that for me on the cross. All I can do is offer my heart–completely to you.

So I’ll walk upon salvation. I tread this path that you have laid before me–the beautiful joys and the Job-like sufferings. I’ll walk upon your salvation, for to walk anywhere else is to fall, like Peter in the water. Your spirit is alive in me–even when I do not sense you, you never leave. I want my life to declare your promises. I want others to see you in me.

My soul now to stand.

1 Thessalonians 3:8 For now we live, if you are standing fast in the Lord.

My soul now to stand.

And I’ll stand God with my arms raised in praise to you. I’ll stand out of respect and in worship of You. I’ll stand with my heart, mind and soul abandoned to you. Abandoned of my own selfish dreams and desires; replace them God with only what you want for my life.

I’ll stand, in awe of you God!! In awe!! For you gave it all. You gave your son. For me. For us.

I’ll stand God, my soul surrendered to you alone–no idols. I’ll stand God, my soul surrendered to you alone–I give up.

All I am is yours. This mess of a life. This broken life. My failures, my sins. My gifts and my talents. My fears and my confidences. The very essences that make me who I am. It’s all yours God. It’s all yours.

I’ll stand.

You stood before creation
Eternity within Your hand
You spoke the earth into motion
My soul now to stand

You stood before my failure
Carried the Cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand

So what can I say?
What can I do?
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I’ll walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand

So what can I say?
What can I do?
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So Ill stand with arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
So Ill stand, my soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours